What my life says

Making up is now one of my favorite things to do after a fight :)

I hate Gods irony of life, of how I can connect things from overflow to my situation, to the book I am reading about idols, or the sermon I watched from a well-known speaker. So much irony you would think God is trying to tell me something. Lol.

4 weeks

In 4 weeks, school will be over for the summer!! I am excited about this but yet I am also sad. I am sad about this because I don’t know what I am going to do during it. For the majority of the summer, I will just be in Denton. Chiling and hanging out with people , I guess. Luke, the boyfriend, is taking summer school so he can graduate next Spring. Me, I don’t know. It makes me really anxious bc if I was going to be in the counseling program I would be taking summer classes but I have decided not to continue since I need to make sure where God wants me. I hate being anxious right now. I hate not knowing what I am going to do for the summer or for the future. This sucks.

Promise me when we get married, we will love each other this much, if not more than we do now. Bc that is all I want is to love you the rest of my life and no one else

And missing him makes me excited for when I get married to him bc then I get to see him everyday of my life and I will get to fall asleep in his arms every night.

I have come to realize that after almost a week without seeing my boyfriend that I start to really miss him and missing him is the worst at times.

Don’t know what the future holds and that’s ok

Right now I can somewhat say that I am ok with not going back to school in the Fall or at least I don’t know if I am. It has taken a lot out of me to trust God with my future even when I thought I had it all planned out. I guess my plan and what I wanted is not what God had planned for me. I don’t know what I am going to do this summer. I even don’t know what I am going to this next Fall. Maybe go back to school and take some classes thatI have been wanting to take. I may even do something else. Or maybe I will get a somewhat better job and just work but I will do it because that is where God wants me and not what I want me.

AnywayI thought I would just tell you that. It takes a lot from me to do to trust in God and to leave school for something God wants but maybe that is where I need to be in God’s control and not mine.